Wednesday, December 31, 2008


well, i've been back from the cruise for 2 days now. i've just been catching up on stuff online and procrastinating from posting about the whole trip.

it's ironic (at least that's what i think) and really annoying tho. i mean, during the cruise, when i had nothing to do, i was already writing in my head what i was gonna post when i got back, but when i'm finally back home, i dont wanna type everything up and explain everything that happened. and this doesnt only happen when i'm on vacation; it happens everytime i do anything interesting.

so, i'll just go in order of the days and what happened during the cruise.

we left the house around 1:30 AM. it took around 6-7 hours to get to tampa, FL and find where the cruise ship was at. but we were too early and we couldnt board the ship until 12:30 (we were there by 8, i think), so we drove to an empty spot near the place and slept (at least i did since i couldnt sleep any more than 2 hours on the way down there) and ate.

we still couldnt board the ship just yet when the time came, but we could load our luggage onto it already, so we got a person who handles luggage (forgot what they're called) to deal with ours and hung out at this cafe place with free wi-fi that was just around the corner of where we're supposed to be at.

obviously, we waited outside. i really wanted a danish... -_-''

i got really bored of just sittin there since everyone else was doin something -parents eating or on the phone, brother playing DS, sis on her laptop- so i decided to take pictures of anything and everything.

look, it's the jo bros! XP and daddy of course. :P

the parking lot right across the street.

my spot at the table. my star bag that shelle gave me since i didnt own any (and still dont XD) and mah purple stripid jacket. :3

there was an aquarium right across the street!! we could of totally went there and still be on time for boarding! ...i think. XP

and i took alot more pictures of random things and such. like... a bird!

and a trashcan! XD

and i took a whole lot more while we were JUST WAITING to board the ship, but i'm too lazy to post (and explain :P) them all, they'd take forever to load onto here, and they're really random and aren't really relevant.

and then, there was actually a sign that said that we couldnt take any pictures of the area when we were finally starting the boarding procedures. so yeah, no pictures of that. but it didnt take very long. all we had to do was show this dood at the door our fun pass ticket and passports and go through the metal detector process like at airports.

and then we got to wait some more for everyone else to get there in this big room. we got to take pics here and for the rest of the way.

when you looked up in the room, it looked like you were in a freezer or something since it had that frost covered look. but it wasnt cold or anything, actually. :P

after waiting for our group (we were group 5) to be called and taking photos for our sail and sign card (basically our credit card for the trip since you couldnt pay for anything in cash and the card to our room), we were finally on the cruise. which was around 1 or 2, but they said that we couldnt go into our rooms until we set sail around 4.

so what did we do until then? explore and take pics of course! :P

these were taken at one of the many widow-seats on one side of the boat. it looked like it was gonna rain whole day. green wild-life on the right...

...and construction on the left

and the best of both worlds. :D

and me on the window-seat i was talking about. :P

eventually, we got to finally go into our rooms and drop our stuff off. mommy, shelle, and i were supposed to sleep in one room and daddy and brian were supposed to sleep in another room, but we never do that. XP shelle and i got our own room to ourselves and the 'rents and brian got their own room. what's even better, the boat is divided by even and odd numbers. even numbers on one side of the boat and odd on the other. so we were VERY far away from the parentals. XD

and then we had dinner. which was fancy; i mean, i've never actually ate at a restaurant that served 3 meals altogether. yeah, you can obviously tell that i've never been to any fancy places in my life. not my fault. :P besides, i personally dont think that i'm suited for the fancy smhancy life. i prefer casual. XD

but anyways, dinner, as it turns out, we have to eat with another family of 5, too. i dont remember their name, tho. ^_^'' mommy only got one blurred pic of half the family from her end of the table (well, acutally, she sat at the front of the table, i sat at the end next to the window which was always too dark to properly make out the waves or anything outside).

after dinner, we went back to our room to find that they already did room service and had a cool surprise.

a seal made out of a towel!

and while i was taking a shower, shelle took a pic of our really small room. surprisingly, you could fit 4 beds in there. but on the bottom bunks, you cant sit up without hitting your head, which really sucked.

yeah, we only got the room for a couple of hours and it's already a mess. :P you can see a side of the towel seal here. that's the only other pic that has the seal in it, tho, which stinks cuz it's not letting me put the close up pic that i have of it on here.

i got the bunk beds while shelle got the single bed. XD cuz you know, there's supposed to have 3 ppl sleeping in our room. XP but yeah, i read on the bottom bunk and sleep on the top bunk.

shelle got me climbing onto the the top bunk "candidly". XP

and that's all for day one.

jeez, this many pics for ONE day. and it wasnt even a whole day.

now, i know that i should be workin on day two, but i really need to get the pent up fangirling outta my system. :P

on the DAY THAT WE CAME BACK from the cruise, in korea, there was a piano battle between DBSK's xiah junsu and big bang's taeyang. which is pretty epic. i mean, korea's 2 biggest boybands against each other.

it was pretty awesome. they sang songs in engrish! XP taeyang sang dont wanna try by frankie jay and junsu sang my everything by 98 degrees. piano-wise, i think taeyang did better, but voice-wise, junsu won hands down. XD

and jae's tattoo!!! love him! XD this was at the end of their mirotic performance at Gayo Daejun (same place that the piano battle took place).

wahh... this sucks. i had so much more stuff to say, but i forgot it.

oh yeah! i just finished watching this short drama (10 episodes) i started yesterday called yakan club, AKA leisure club. i liked the ending music and it actually said who the artist was, so i checked them out a little. the band's name's KAT-KUN and two of the members were actually in the drama! one reminded me of changmin cuz of his lips and hairstyle cuz changmin had a style similar to that before.

see. the dood...

changmin... kinda similar, right? :P

but yeah, i listened to a couple of their songs. they're pretty good. and i found out that they're pretty popular in '06. not sure about now. :D

we're (as in my loving sis and i XP) home alone. parents and bro went to our cuzins (who are our only blood relatives in GA, not counting the ones that came from vietnam a couple of months ago) and are gonna stay the night there. new years is just a couple of hours away, and shelle is cooking dinner now.


i'll finish telling you about the cruise later. or maybe next year. :P


Saturday, December 20, 2008

got to see my fiends after so long!! XD

ahh, soooo tired... sleepy...

finals are finally over. i know that i passed most of my classes cuz the teachers already had them graded by the end of the period (they were all on scan-trons). i didnt have to worry about michael like i thought i would - didnt see him at all during any of my lunches. and i was seriously having A.D.D. moments during the last hours of the days cuz i was so not used to sitting in a room for 3 hours straight and not walking alot.

haley and krista were over today. and teyana, shelle's best friend from hawkinsville, came over, too (she's staying the night). it was really fun. too bad they couldnt stay the night. but i dunno if i could take, i mean, i was sleepy and tired halfway through their visit today so i dunno if i would be able to stay up like usual and stuff with them and their craziness. :P

but yeah, i showed them some hot boybands (DBSK and SUJU XD). they both like jaejoong the most out of DBSK, mostly krista tho, cuz haley's favorites depends on what they're wearing and their hairstyle (ya, totally shallow XP). loved watching krista's reactions, especially when she was watching mirotic, looking at jae. her mouth would open and she'd just stare and occasionally make a little noise. XD and everyone liked SUJU's don't don mv, especially at the part where they all do some thrusting.

and later, haley started complaining about bobby, not knowing what to think of him anymore. yeah, AFTER she saw all of these hot asians. krista and i didnt forget to mention that to her. altho she said that she was trying to tell krista all day. surrree... XP

i downloaded itunes onto her laptop (she got a new one. it's a hand-me-down that bobby gave her cuz he has a new laptop, so it's still old-ish) and gave her the music videos that she like - rising sun, mirotic, wrong number, dont don, and u. i told her that she should show bobby them and tell him to start lookin like them more. XP she agreed. XD

we played DDR and wii sports for what seemed like hours until i started creating a myspace account for krista since she wanted to keep in touch with us and stuff. so we kinda quit playing the wii and just got on our laptops to do stuff; krista searching for the perfect profile theme and pictures on my laptop and haley trying to update her myspace on hers while i improved her laptop in the entertainment area (gave her itunes and firefox. the interweb's been sooo slow today, i was so irritated) until it was time for them to go home.

i dont feel like explaining the whole getting home situation, so yeah... maybe later. :P

argh! i wish that i remembered to take pictures!! :( i have no recent ones of anyone and their new haircuts! gah!

not alot happened this week other than my idiots coming over today and the finals. like i said, the finals basically was all that happened; studying and preparing for/dreading it.

and i found this link to a petition for DBSK to hold a concert in the US an hour ago. i already signed it of course. and since i want it to come true and i dont know that many DBSK fans in the US personally, i'm gonna post the link on here in case any fan somehow does stumble across it and reads this post this far, will be able to help and sign, too. i'm gonna try and spread it to as many sites as i can.

the link:

altho, will this petition really work? i mean, how will SM entertainment even get a hold on this? well, i'm sure that if there's alot of votes, then it would some attention somehow and eventually, it'll get to them. ^^

mommy said that we're going to FL on wednesday and the cruise leaves on thursday at 4 altho we'll be boarding the thing at noon. dont ask. and haley wants me to bring her back mexican sand.

tired. i think i'll actually go to sleep soon. it is past 1 in the morning anyways.

Saturday, December 13, 2008


just got back from aunt's house in hawkensville. i thought that it was just a little get together, but it was actually a birfday party. my aunt and uncle are actually grandparents now. they're 3 sons are all grown up and 2 of them are married with one kid each. it was one of their grandkid's birthday. his name's thai and he's turning 2 tomorrow.

but earlier, shelle called teyana and found out that she was at home in hawkensville, so we got our parent's permission to go out with teyana for a while. we went on a little tour to see the elementary, middle, and high school. it took a little while, but i had little fragments and flashbacks of memories of elementary school at recess and stuff, when we passed the huge playground at elementary school.

then we went to cyber hippies, this place in town that apparently alot of kids from school hung out at. it stayed true to its name having hippie words, stickers, posters, and pictures on the walls, ceiling, floor, everywhere. and they had some laptops and rockband to play.

a couple of minutes after we got there, i wanted to take a walk so shelle gave me mommy's cell phone to take with me in case i got raped or so she could call me if we needed to go home.

so i walked around town with my ipod on. i didnt do that many turns and stuff cuz i was pretty sure that i'd get lost in the end. but it was around 40 degrees outside and i was fine with it(walked past a big bank, they always have a sign outside tellin you the time and temperature) . i saw alot of stuff that i dont even remember and some stuff that i was pretty sure was new for about an hour.

i ran across some streets to get to the other side (heh, the old chicken joke :P) a couple of times cuz i never bothered pushing the button to wait for the crosswalk roads to tell me when to walk. after a while, i remembered that i liked running in the cold like this, i decided to run down a whole street sidewalk. so i was just running for the heck of it, when halfway through the run, shelle called saying that i needed to come back.

good thing i was near the place. i ran half the way there just cuz i wanted to and cuz she kinda interrupted my run anyways (altho i was gonna go back after i was done with my run).

but yeah, after i got back, we got a call from daddy saying that we were gonna leave soon, so we had to go back. which we did, eventrually.

i have no idea why i'm evening typing this.


too much stuff i need to do!!

argh! i'm so busy these days since finals are coming up next week! i've got endless pages of study guides that i need to do and start studying before next wednesday! and when ever i plan on doing them on the weekend, something always comes up so i CANT get anything done! it's like something WANTS me to fail the finals.

on wednesday, i finally realized that i was stressed from all of that (not to mention, i had at least one test everyday of this week except monday) and that i was gonna crash if i didnt do anything about it.

so i called haley and krista to try to plan something out to do on the weekend together. but haley cant come today cuz she's going with bobby cuz he's gonna buy her a jacket and haley's krista's ride to warner robins so she cant come. but haley said that she's gonna try to come up on sunday (still havent gotten to talk to her yet about that, so not totally sure) but krista cant come that day cuz she's got church.

and then mommy said that TOMORROW, we'll go to the store and stuff to get some fancy clothes and stuff, so i dont know how that's gonna work out since haley's supposed to be coming over that day. and she said that we were gonna go to the store YESTERDAY. jeez, could she make up her goddamn mind?!

yeah, i'm just a bit ticked and pissed off.

i hate amberly now. i found out that amberly dyed her hair a plum(?) color from haley. I wanted purple streaks in my hair! (yes, i know i'm being petty) but i told haley to take a pic of it to let me see her new hair since she kinda let it grow out so i guess it's different now.

and dood, i saw niasha on tuesday. i'm 95% sure it's her anyways.

okay, so you know how we were best friends with each other in the 4th grade, and that summer, we both had to move, right? she moved to warner robins and i moved to taylor.

i totally forgot that she lived in warner robins. yeah, i found out that there was a niasha chisolms in HOCO, but i couldnt exactly find her since there's over 600 9th graders for one thing, and i didnt have any classes with her.

but yeah, our health classes were doing ADAP together in the multi-purpose room. so her health teacher started calling out roll, and all of a sudden, i hear niasha being called and someone saying here. so i started looking around (we were all sitting on the floor together) trying to recognize anyone who could resemble her. and then i saw one girl sitting a couple of feet behind me a few feet to my right who looked at her. i got ondriona who was sitting beside me and who knew who niasha was to confirm if it was her.

she said yeah, it was. and by that time, our health teacher was calling our class's roll, and she called my name. i turned around to face the teacher and said here. when i turned back around to look at niasha, she was looking at me, too. i dont know if she recognized me, though; we just stared at each other fir a couple of seconds until we had to face our teachers.

and after we finished our lesson, my class left to go back to our trailer classroom so i couldnt talk to her. i saw here a twice the next day, but i didnt get to talk to her then, either.

now, i want to see cullen.

and now onto my favorite doods! XD

this is a pic from a calender DBSK did. they're so adorkable. XP

and this pic of jae just kills >_<

their new japanese single is coming out in january, but they already let out a preview of one of the songs, bolero. it's sounds REALLY good. it kind of sounds whimsical, like a dream or a daydream. it's really beautiful.

and the song's gonna be the soundtrack to this movie, subaru. it's a movie adaption to a japanese manga that's about ballet, and that has a very diverse set of actors that's from japan, korea, and china. very interesting. :P and that's not the best part, there was a voting thing or something like that, but DBSK will be doing a camo appearance in the movie. no talking, but i think they'll be singing in it live at some part. and they plan to release the movie in '09 at the same time all over asia and hopefully europe and america! i really do hope it'll show in america, too.

not that much news about SUJU, tho. but heechul's really growing on me. :P his personality is so different from anyone i know (especially coming from stars), that it's refreshing and hilarious. i especially love the episode of ya shim man man that had heechul and hangeng as guests. it was so hilarious. XD

here's the first part. those two are hilarious together. :D

anyways, gotta go. leaving for my aunt's house soon.

argh! how the hell am i supposed to do my homework and crap?!

Friday, December 5, 2008

an early worry and the irony

so on tuesday, my math teacher told us this funny story. she had a new student for the past week and she thought that he could only speak spanish cuz that was all he spoke and wrote, but when some teachers called his mom to figure out what to do about the language barrier, his mom said that he's spoken english all of his life!

it was all a prank! i wish that i could of thought of that. but then again, i can barely understand vietnamese anymore, let alone speak it. but that dood's a genius. :P

and on monday, we got a new kid in tech theater! and she's from alaska! i havent spoken to her, though. her name's amber (found out from her binder XD).

and here's a pic of my laptop that i said i'd take a loooong time ago.

and this is a pic of the $20 (was originally $40) shirt that i splurged at in papaya. my first time buying a button-up shirt, too. who knew it'd be checkered? :P

all week, i've been constantly reminded that finals are coming soon and i so dont want to take them, and not only cuz they count 25% of my grade.

see, my finals take place for 3 days; the last 3 days before christmas holidays. we take 2 finals a day: 1st and 4th on the first day, 2nd and 5th on the second day, and 3rd and 6th on the last day and spend 3 hours in each class (i dunno what we do with the other 2 hours of school). and we cant leave school after we finish taking our 2nd finals at the end of the day and you go to lunch with your 4th, 5th, and 6th period class.

i was fine with the schedule at first before i realized that i'd have to spend my last hours at school before break having to deal with michael (thank god he's only in one of my classes, but my 6th period of all periods?!) and that i'm most likely gonna have michael sitting with me at lunch.

so now i'm really dreading finals. i've been asking my friends to find out what lunch period they have but they all have different periods (i have 4th lunch on that day) except maybe ondriona (she doesnt know if she has 3rd or 4th lunch). but there's still a couple of people who i havent asked yet cuz i keep on forgetting so there's still a little hope. :P

and yes, i know that i'm worrying about something that isnt really big. i mean, the thought of just telling him to leave me alone hasnt crossed my mind a BILLION times already. but when we were passing notes yesterday, he was telling me about how he was gonna pelt his cuzin with snowballs in texas over break, i told him that i was gonna go on a cruise during the break (yeah, i found out that the whole fam's going on a 5-day cruise from FL to mexico and back over break. i had to fill out some online stuff the night before for it) and he said that boats are scary.

i was like, what the heck, no they're not. and he wrote back saying that they could sink and then i'd be stranded and he'd has abandonment issues.

pessimistic much? so i told him that the boat was not gonna sink and he said that the titanic sank. i told him whatever and that i'd rather go to cali and spend christmas with my cuzins. and then he wrote that i had to promise to come back safe. i never promised.

do you see what i have to deal with?! telling him to bug off is gonna make him do extreme things that i do NOT want to be the cause of. and he's a smart dood; it doesnt take a genius to tell from my behavior towards him to tell him that i dont really like his company. i'm pretty sure he knows it too, but he's the idiot who's hurting himself.

but yeah, i still have another week before i really need to start worrying, so i'm just gonna try to figure something out by then.

and yesterday, around an hour after i got home from school, my gold bracelet that mommy gave me broke. i never thought that it'd be possible to break since it's made of gold, but it did.

and now onto korean boy bands! XD

OMG!!! DBSK was actually on american tv!!! it finally showed on fuse excellent adventure!! i didnt get to watch it on tv since we didnt have the channel and cuz it was on at 11:30 and the no tv on school days rule (not like i watch tv anymore, i have interweb for everything XP), tho. so of course i watched it on youtube the day after it showed on tv. :P

i was totally flipping out and fangirling when i finally saw them. XD i really wished that the show was an hour long instead of only 30 minutes, tho. i was really disappointed that super junior wasnt on it, tho. and they showed shinee alot on the show (altho it was clearly and obviously stated and showed in the show that DBSK's their favorite band), so next band that i'm gonna check out after big bang is gonna be shinee.

i only know that they debuted in april (i think) this year, they're pretty young (the youngest is 16, i think), and that they're becoming pretty big.

now onto other DBSK news, the ministry of youth and something or another has declared that the lyrics to DBSK's mirotic to be too sexual/perverted or whatever for kids so now they have to have appropriate for 19 and older stickers on their mirotic cd, cant play mirotic on tv shows or radios until after 10:30 pm and before 6 am, and must have a clean, edited version of the song (basically gonna hafta rewrite the chorus and other parts) which is all LAME and STUPID. cuz guess what, they're done promoting mirotic, they're doing wrong number now.

and something even more ironic is that yesterday, it was announced that DBSK's mirotic cd has broken their last cd's record sell and i think the record of the most bought album in korea having 460,000 something cd's sold for one album. (EDIT: correction, they're album has the highest record sale for this year out of any idol/artists.)

and they're working on their japanese single ( is gonna have 3 songs) and have released a preview of the songs. it's all over the web. :P

there's nothing really new about SUJU except that it's been said by the members that they're slowly working on their third album. and earlier this week, kangin was rushed to the hospital cuz he fainted. turns out that it's from fatigue, i hope he gets better and that this wont happen to any of the other members.

i think that's it for now. :D

not that long at all! XD

Sunday, November 30, 2008

another group that i love

wahh... so much has happened and i meant to write it all down, but i can't remember what i wanted to write about that happened last week. oh well, if it was important, i would of remembered it, right? ^_^'' i'm just gonna believe so.

well, yeah, it's thanksgiving holidays. well, it's over now, since thanksgiving was on thursday and today's saturday, isnt it? but yeah, i'm at grandma's house at the moment, upstairs and really sleepy. came here on tuesday night and were supposed to go home today, but shelle got a call from mommy and she said that we'll go home tomorrow.

but before i tell everything that's happened so far at grandma's, i just remembered what i wanted to tell you about last week! :P

during the last week of school, i really slacked off AND the tests i had all week (one every day of the week except for thursday) were really hard. not to mention, i was having insomnia or something cuz i kept on waking up at 3-4 in the morning, so that was not helping me either.

i think it's cuz my mind or conscience wanted me to keep on watching exploring the human body which is hosted by all 13 members of super junior. i started watching it cuz it was so funny and i actually learned alot of stuff from the show. it was really addicting to watch, so i think that's why i kept on waking up so early in the morning just to watch an episode or two of the show. i wish that they didnt cancel the show after only 13 episodes, though, due to their busy schedules; it's really funny and actually educational.

and on tuesday, during thanksgiving holidays, i went to take my test to get my learners. i failed. XD i wasnt expecting to pass since i only started reading the book 2 days before the test; i just wanted to know if i had the luck or not to pass it. i passed the signs part (there are 2 parts to the test) but failed the law part.

and yeah, that's all i remember about that. :P

so, on wednesday at grandma's house, i didnt do anything really interesting except catching up with all of my cuzins and stuff. on thursday (thanksgiving!) we went to amber's house for nancy's birthday party (she turned 1) and i got to see gina who i havent seen in ages. it was pretty cool, seeing her again. it made me want to see julie again since i havent seen her in forever, too, and see how she's doing.

and on friday (black friday! XD) shelle, nicole, megan, henry (their bro who drove us), and i went to the GA mall cuz everything was on sale. we had to get up early cuz stores like american eagle and pacsun had these 20% off sales off the entire store until 1 PM. so we shopped there first. and we went to aeropostale, papaya, delias, and journeys. i actually bought something at all of the stores except journeys.

that day, i bought the most clothes i had in my entire life, i think. i bought a pair of skinny jeans and a long sleeve shirt at pacsun; a hoodie at american eagle; a tank top, a wife beater, and 3(2 were only 6 bucks and was 20 but it looked so awesome, that i had to get it. it was this bright blue and black checkered lon sleeve shirt) long sleeve shirts at papaya; a pair of pants and a shirt with wings on the back at aeropostale; and a shirt and a jacket that i'm gonna share with shelle that costed $50 (it was so awesome and i really needed a jacket, not a hoodie for school). so yeah, i think that's the most clothes i've ever bought at once.

and ever since i finished watching exploring the human body, i've been interested in super junior cuz they're so crazy and funny. so lately, i've been watching shows and stuff with super junior which were hilariously funny and cute.

i found out that one of the members, kibum, was born in korea but he moved to LA when he was 10 until he got picked for suju, so he knows english the best out of all of them, and his smile... man, it really lights up his face and makes him even adorable-er. heechul gave him the nickname snow white.

shiwon is the peacemaker who loves to laugh alot, like DBSK's micky. he uses alot of hand gestures, and no matter what the other members make him do, he never loses his cool. tall, model, actor, singer, gentlemanly; everyone loves him.

han gen is from china so when ever he gets something wrong in english or korean, he uses that as an excuse. he loves ramen, and is just really dorky like the rest of the members. :P his serious face is totally different from his usual smiling self like shiwon.

donghae can play the guitar, his name means east sea so his nickname is fishy in english. he looks totally adorable when he learns english and when he uses it in full house. he's really sensitive, and his smile is totally innocent looking. he likes to wear hats alot.

heechul's favorite color is pink. he used to have alot of crazy hair styles in the past. he likes messing around with the other members, and he turns into a black rapper when he starts speaking english (at least he used to in full house). his nickname is cinderella, i dunno why.

sungmin apparently owns alot of pink things; dunno if it's his fav color or not. [EDIT: it is his fav color] he's really cute and and he looks adorable even with his mouth full of food. and pumpkin or squash is his favorite food or something so fans call him the pumpkin prince or something along the lines. XD

leeteuk is the leader of all memebers, and the oldest. his face is really recognizable cuz it's unique like that. from what we've (shelle and i) seen, it looks like the oldest members of both DBSK and SUJU are really touchy-feely with the rest of the members.

kangin is this tough lookin dood who's really playful and stuff. sort of like emment from twilight. even though he cant help it at times, he uses strength/force to do whatever it is, but he's really kind and cares about the other members. he likes to pants people (whether it's on purpose or accidental depends XD).

ryeowook totally looks like the youngest member (so innocent looking!) when he's really the 3rd youngest. he was the only one i knew and recognized in the beginning cuz his face is also unique and so is his voice.

kynhyun is the last member to join SUJU and is the youngest. he doesnt appear that much in variety shows and stuff so i dont know that much about him. but from what i've seen, he seems like an adorkable cutie like the rest of the members. XD

yesung, i've found out from this morning, usually gets edited out of the variety shows alot. and he's always standing/sitting at the end; another reason as to why he hardly gets any camera time. poor yesung, he's camera deprived.

eunhyuk is junsu's best friend who's been with him since i think middle school. possibly elementary. poor him and junsu, they're always getting picked on. and he's one of the main rappers in SUJU.

shindong is the biggest of all the members. he choreographs most of their dance moves. there's not much info about him.

like i said, they're all adorkably funny idiots who are all also cute. :3 they're more playful than DBSK when they're together, and they're all really close that they're always touching and hugging each other. it makes it even easier for all of the fangirls to have ideas about relationships between the members cuz of all of their skinship. XD

but my favorite-est out of all of them is donghae. he's so cute and sweet. god, i love seeing his smile, it's so innocent and adorable! aish, i cant even describe it, you just gotta see it for yourself (and sungmin's smile, it's so cute!! ^^). XP i guess you could say that he's like a puppy. XD

my 2nd fav is kibum. his smile is to die for, too. and shelle absolutely loves him, so i've seen tons of videos of him and i ended up falling for him, too. plus, i love hearing him speaking in english. there's something about asians speaking english that i just love hearing, and i can't get enough of hearing kibum speaking it.

this is my fav video clip from full house of my 2 fav SUJU members speaking english. ^w^

my top 2 fav members! XD

and some other SUJU facts. they're offical color is sapphire blue, like DBSK's is red. they're fans are called ELF (i forgot what it stands for. try to remember it later :P) since super junior is so big, they have created subgroups to which was a way to prove that they're very versatile in different genres and stuff. there's super junior KRY, super junior m(andarin), super junior t(rot), and super junior h(appy).

super junior KRY is made up of Kyuhyun, Ryeowook, and Yesung. the company discovered that these three members developed a particular persona and subsequent fan-base that was separate from the rest of the group, and how they also had similar musical qualities. so they grouped the 3 together to target a more mature audience singing mournful, r&b ballads.

super junior trot is composed of leeteuk (leader of group), heechul, kangin, shindong, sungmin, and eunhyuk. they sing trot music which is the oldest form of korean pop music.

super junior mandarin has han geng (leader of the group since he's the only one who's fluent in both mandarin and korean), donghae (fishy! he's so cute XD), shiwon, ryeowook, kyuhyn, and 2 non-suju members: henry and zhou mi. because of SUJU's rising popularity in china, the company decided to have an official group there to i guess represent them and stuffs.

i found out that henry lives in canada all his life until he got recruited for super junior m, so english is his native language! and he's such a cutie! XD and he's played the violin since he was 6 so he's super good! he played the violin part in SUJU's dont don mv even before they created super junior m.

i dont know anything about zhou mi, though. ^^''

and super junior happy has all the members of super junior trot except heechul was replaced by yesung. for some reason, super junior trot announced that they would be on hiatus for a while. but super junior happy is mainly bubblegum pop (happy stuff-ish that takes you away from all of those sad love songs) with quirky lyrics and a refreshing rhythm aimed for people to feel happiness (hence the name, duh :P).

and that's all i got for SUJU for now. so much info. XD

and i found this hilarious pic at funny junk.

wow, this is prolly gonna be the longest post yet. :P

Sunday, November 16, 2008

a walk, our talk

i was meaning to post yesterday about what i did yesterday and stuff. not really anything big, but i still wanted to remember everything that's been happening recently.

so we went to books a million yesterday and walmart (first time in months). at BAM, i actually ran into corey (dood who formed the anime manga club altho he doesnt want to be prez). he was trying to find some new interesting manga and i started helping him out by pointing out really girly manga and yaoi manga cuz i knew that he wouldnt like it. and he was being all pervy and stuff like usual, showing me manga that were all hentai.

then shelle came and he started whispering stuff to me like "she's hot", "ask her if she's got a boyfriend", and stuff like that. it was really funny since he wasnt being really quiet about it but shelle later told me that she kinda tuned our convo out so she didnt hear half of it.

and brian and yen (cuzin from vietnam) came with us too, and they were over at the other side where all of the geeks were dueling yu-gi-oh cards (from little kids to high schoolers). we were about to leave so shelle went over there to tell them that, and she told me that she heard some doods saying that she's hot. some other dood was like, "she's out of your league, man".

AHAHA!!! she got hit on by geeks at BAM!! XD that was so funny!

and then we went to walmart and shelle saw 2 people from her school.

after we got home, we (shelle and i) went for a walk. i told her about what michael told me earlier this week (dont really wanna get into it. i'm tired of him and everything he puts onto me), and then we got talking about guys, crushes, everything.

we walked around an hour, getting off topic all the time, talking about everything and catching up. and then, when we went back home, shelle had to clean her shoes so we talked even more while she did that.

it felt really good. we hadnt had a talk like that in ages. prolly since we moved here. but yeah, lately, it had seemed that every weekend, when she was here, we didnt really hang out that much since the little cuzins always played with her and homework got in the way. so it felt good to finally hang out and get everything that's been going through my mind lately, off my chest and the other way around.

...yeah, what i planned to tell you about what happened earlier this week is really unimportant, so i'm not gonna bother telling. :P maybe this will actually be a short post! :D

and now onto DBSK! cuz of course i hafta mention them in every post! XP

version c of their new cd is finally out! i dunno if i ever mentioned it to you or not, but oh well. this version has 4 extra songs in it. one written and composed by micky, another written and also composed by jaejoong, and one song sung by junsu, changmin, and 2 members from super junior.

i've seen the album pics of the new version and they look really GOOD. specially jae XD but that's prolly cuz i love him the most. ^^

could he be any more perfect? >_<
sekshi.. XD

and that's not all! their new music video is finally out! the vid was very, very awesome. not like that's surprising. :P the dancing was very well choreographed as expected, too. very smooth and sekshi. :P

and micky got a new hair cut again. he dyed it brown, too. it kinda reminds me of how he looked in his hug days wayyy in the beginning. it looks good, but i'm pretty sure that any hair style would look good on him. :P

that's it for now.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

the past, the now, and hopefully the future

wow, so many thoughts are rushing through my mind right now. i dont know what to say first cuz i'm scared that i'll forget everything else that i want to say. this happens alot; when i'm telling you, or when i just... think.

well, firstly, i'll just start here: it's veteran's day. didnt have to go to school today (yay! got to sleep in!). i have 2 projects due - one this friday, the other next thursday - so i worked on that for a couple of hours. after doing all of that, i've been free to do whatever i wanted which has been a first for me in a while.

i mean, yeah, i goof off on fridays and saturdays and start working on school stuff on sunday, but it's different (somehow) since this is a school day. either way, i'm really glad that we got to have a day off today (does taylor county have today off, too?). i really needed it. and i'm gonna be even gladder on friday next week cuz that's the start of thanksgiving holidays!

anyways, the point of mentioning this: i've finally got free time, and since i've basically done everything that i wanted/needed to do, i've had time to actually THINK. something i dont do much. half the time is cuz i dont have the time, and the other half is cuz i... just dont want to think. i dont want to remember things and ask myself questions that i dont have any answers to.

i saw two other people's blogs and they're totally different from what i did on mine. they didnt exactly put personal stuff like i've done and stuff. and i looked at my profile page and it said that i have 87 profile views. now i know that it doesnt mean that that many people actually LOOKED at my blog, but some have got to. i know that at least one person did, they actually left a comment.

but anyways (i say that alot, dont i? :P) i dunno, it made me think about if it's really a good idea to even post what i do on here? or if i should make this private instead of public. i know the reason why i made this public in the first place though; i'm not afraid to admit it on here where i dont know anyone and they dont know me.

i made it public cuz i was hoping that maybe i could make a friend on here. that on some crazy chance, someone could read this and leave a comment and sooner or later, become friends. because that's something i've always wanted. to have a friend from somewhere far away who doesnt know me so i could tell all of these things to them. i've always wanted a penpal or someone on the internet to talk to ever since i read the year of secret assignments. it sounds totally cool. but, i guess i wont be able to make one. :(

secondly: my sucky, boring life. as you've prolly figured by now, my life's boring. i'm boring. nothing happens. i have no stories to tell except for the one's from my imagination. it's the truth.

that's why i want a friend who've i've never met. so i can tell them about my life and get a responce back. i know that i have best friends, but i know that we're not exactly that close anymore. how can we be? i've moved. so i dont think that i could ever tell them what i tell you.

and michelle and i are really close, but there's only so much i of what i think and feel that i can put into words. and i've already kinda told her this before, and her advice was good, but it's not me. i couldnt do it. sometimes, it's better to not get family involved.

honestly, i dont know how to make friends like i did in taylor. i'm one of the quiet people who listens to other people's stories. i'm a wallflower. and when i occasionally get hyper, then i act random and crazy. something that's only happened once at the new school and it only lasted for a couple of minutes in math.

i have no life; i dont know what i'd do if i never discovered DBSK. i've been a fan of theirs for around 3 months and i've watched almost all of the vids that they're in on youtube. i know ALOT of things about every member, and i bet that if i actually tried, i could learn the lyrics to a couple of their songs. thanks to them, i made it through the first month of school with songs like proud and watching hilarious vids of them to cheer me up and keep me going.

growing up, at school, you always get asked questions like, what do you want to be when you grow up? and who is your role model? well, i still dont know what i want to do in the future, but i can finally say that DBSK are my role models. even when they wanted to give up, they didnt, and now, they're all the way at the top.

i was looking at my blog earlier, and i realized that i've almost had it for a whole year. i wanted to know the exact date that i started it, so i went all the way back to my first post in january. i ended up reading all 4 posts that i made in that month, and wow, life was so much more simpler back then. no where as hard as it is now. i wonder if i've grown mentally because of moving.

i wonder how long i'll post on here? all the way through high school to college? next year (i doubt it)? either way, i want to look back on here one day in the future, and read every post that i've ever made. it was nostalgic just reading the first posts on here but it made me happy. because, you know, i have a bad memory and stuff, so i'll forget alot. i'm glad that i'll remember what happened in the past on here.

you know, the maximum i've ever posted a month has been 4? i have a feeling that since i dont really like all of these reaalllllyyyy long posts, the max is gonna eventually change. but i dunno, since it all depends on if i have free time or not.

and thirdly: my birthday party last saturday.

lately, parties always surprise me (not that i've been to alot lately). at my party, i got to see old friends whom i've met at other parties, i saw my old crush's older brother (they look so alike, i thought that it was him until tony told me it wasnt), embarressed myself alot, played a song on the guitar that i learned in a couple of hours, and recieved alot of money (twice as much as i expected).

but yeah, some people from the last party we went to (johnson or nixon's graduation party over the summer) came; johnson and nixon, too. we actually got along pretty well and hung out in my room most of the time.

so, i didnt get any presents. instead, everyone gave me money, and everytime, mommy would make me say thank you in viet to them. everytime i said it, they'd laugh at me! and i dont get why either!

but that wasnt the only embarressing thing, tho. my aunt kimberly who's not really my aunt (known her and her family since forever so they're practically family) found out that i'm learning how to play the guitar and kinda forced me into playing happy birthday on the guitar for her later. problem was that i didnt know how, so i had to go on the internet and find some tabs for it and learn it quickly. luckily, i found some tabs for playing it on one string cuz i could NOT understand the other tabs that required more than one string (still a beginnier who doesnt study :P). so i practiced inbetween going downstairs and thanking people.

i spent around 1-2 hours mastering it. but i think tony did it better than i did and he's never played the guitar before. he plays the violen, though.

before i had to cut my cake, i was forced to play happy birthday for everyone to hear which sounded impossible cuz it was so loud. johnson and vinh tried to get the karioke mic to work so that everyone could hear it since it was so loud, but it didnt work.

in the end, after i started playing the 2nd time (messed up on the 1st), it got really quiet so everyone heard me playing. when i finished, everyone started clapping and i was shocked cuz all of a sudden, i noticed that all of the adults and people had formed this big circle around me in the living room. i thought that no one would be able to hear my performance but i was wrong.

and then i got to cut the first chunk out of my cake. ice cream cake! and then i let shelle cut the rest for me cuz i had to pass it around to everyone. i figured that we'd have at least a third or fourth of the cake left, but dood, there was only a small chunk a little bit bigger than an inch left in the end! but it was really good. XD

the party didnt really get started until around 6 and by 10, almost everyone left already. it was really short compared to the ones we usually go to. but almost everyone we came were chicken farmers, so they prolly have to go back to their work.

but, by the end of the night o (or early morning, i forgot), i finished making my first video. :D i found out that i have windows movie maker on my laptop and i wanted to try it out. it's pretty easy once you get used to it. i just need to find out if i can cut clips and audios from the beginning (not only the ends) or else i'm gonna start looking for a new movie maker.

but i made the movie with the pics and clips that i took of my group of idiot friends the first (and only so far) time they all came over to my house. i couldnt really find a song to go with it, but i think the song that i chose goes kinda well with it. i'm still debating on if i should upload it on youtube (so i can show it to them) but i dunno since the new laws saying that you cant put videos of other people without their permission...

i'm gonna go now. worse than last time, this post took 2 hours to do. and no pictures =3=

well... one pic! :P

Friday, November 7, 2008

different kinds of relationships for everyone

so on monday, i went to the library to start on my lit project. all of a sudden, this girl just sat down at my table and put her head down. i didnt bother her since i thought that she was gonna go to sleep for a bit.

but then, a minute later, i heard her laughing so i looked up, cuz i thought that she was sleeping. she had her arm out, leaning her head down on her hand and the other free hand was holding her cell phone. she was looking at the screen and making small laughing noises, only, it didnt seem right.

a minute later, i realized why. her "laughing" had eventually turned into sobbing. she was still staring at her phone, her hand that was propping her head up was now covering her eyes.

i was shocked. i never expected anything like that to happen. then, a teacher who had walked past us suddenly noticed her crying and askied if she wanted to go home. the girl said that she already called, she was waiting for someone to pick her up. the teacher offered her if she wanted to wait in her room away from prying eyes, but the girl said no.

after a bit, the teacher left and i stared down at my paper. the girl wasnt crying uncontrolably or anything; she just sobbed a few times every minute. i was stuch between asking her what was wrong and just leaving her alone since it kinda seemed like she wanted that.

but before i could do anything, another teacher noticed her and started asking her what was wrong. i couldnt really hear her since her words were kind of muffled behind her hand, but i heard something about her boyfriend's not speaking to her anymore and she doesnt know why.

the teacher kept reassuring her that everything's going to be okay, and eventually left. it was back to before; her sobbing and me trying to make up my mind. it was a few minutes until the bell rang so i figured that i'd leave her alone since she was gonna go home anyways. so i finished my homework and left her alone. i didnt want her to get mad at me for being nosy anyways (emotional people have uncontrolable mood swings!).

but now that i think about it, i shouldnt have left her alone. i should of asked her what was wrong. even people who like to keep to themselves need to tell someone what's going on every once in a while, or else they'd explode, and sometimes (as i realized the night before from the fic my pingpong boy), telling your problems to a stranger can be a good thing. it's one thing to tell an adult your problems, but it's a whole nother thing telling it to someone around your own age who can relate more.

and i realized when i lookeed back on it, that there were a couple of empty tables around me. if she had really wanted to be alone, she'd be more likely to go sit by herself. but she didnt. i dunno, i could be misinterpreting everything since the girl could of been thinking about something else since she was basically having a meltdown.

either way, i regret not talking to her. i feel bad cuz i think that i might of been some help, but i didnt do anything. it's frustrating to regret cuz it's just as bad as being helpless.

anyways, the reason why i even started writing this was cuz i remembered that haley's got a boypren now (bobby. everyone expected it since they always hang out). i doubt that anything like that would ever happen to her since it's totally not her, at least not anytime soon.

but like i said earlier, i dont like feeling regret and helpless. so i told her in her letter that if she has any problems, she'd better tell me; i dont know if i'll be able to help her, but i'm gonna try.

oh yea! taylor said that she was gonna bring cupcakes to 1st period to celebrate her birfday (she ended up bringing brownies instead)! free food in the morning!

jeez, all day on my birfday (also election day), all everyone talked about was either about obama or mccain. in every class, it was mentioned at least once and that was all i heard in the halls. and we actually had an announcement at the end of the day by our principal saying that we couldnt wear any politcal stuff to school any more. the teachers said that we couldnt even talk about it in class. but yeah, on my birfday, we got our first black (technically, islamic) president in history.

people have been telling me that our school's bad. apparently, that's why we always have at least one police officier on campus. i just thought that it was cuz it's a pretty big school and all big schools have one. but our school's not as bad as macon's schools. jen says that half of our school are gang members, druggies, and whores, and that includes the kids in honor classes. i was surprised at that; no one i've met are anything like that. altho, i've only met around 120 people out of more than 1000, so that could be why.

the only person who i've met who's even remotely close to a whore is caleb. he kinda reminds me of evan when he hits on everyone and tries to be sexy (he only ends up looking like a retard, tho). but yeah, he's a player who flirts with any good looking girl. all he talks about is sex or whatever he says eventually ends up with sex or something along the lines. and he's really loud when he gets into whatever he's talking about, so the people who pass by our table at lunch gives him crazy looks half the time.

ugh, robby and mike double-teamed me and kept poking me during the last 10 minutes in tech theater on tuesday and wednesday. when i managed to block one of them, the other would get behind me and poke me! i couldnt defend myself at all!

katey and i have come to the conclusion that mike is like a kitty. at first, we thought that he was a puppy cuz he would act childish when people told him to do something (mainly tyler), but when katey asked him to do something, he actually did it (no, he doesnt like her like that, he has a girlfriend). when i mentioned that to her, she said, "yeah, he's like a puppy." but today, i had a piece of string and he kept trying to catch it even though i kept on moving it around at the last second. this went on for at least a whole minute with his eyes glued on the piece of string.

then i said, "you know, you're more like a kitty, not a puppy."

he said, "yeah, i like dogs but-" stares at string "-i like cats more."

so yeah, now he's katey's kitty. he doesnt know what to do unless you tell him and that takes a while. :P

dood! i cant believe that krista and john are going out! lindsey told me on myspace the other day. i never expected them to get together. i always thought that haley and john eventually would get together and become the offical Creamy Couple like our group had always predicted. i really need to call krista...

in science yesterday, we were supposed to do a lab but the thing we were supposed to experiment with wasnt working, so we got to spend the whole period looking at things through a microscope. it was really cool! i got to look at these small snails (about the same width as my pinky nail) and jamie and megan looked at the roots of their hair. it was disgustingly fascinating. it looked really gross, but you just couldtnt look away.

and michael was acting all depressed and angry (he kept banging his head on the table cuz he said that it makes him feel better) and it was pissing me off. he kept saying how he was glad that this day was finally over (after school while waiting for the bus) and exploding and getting mad at our classmates.

like i said, it was pissing me off. he wouldnt tell me why he was so angry and yet he kept on bringing it up and crap. like he wanted me to keep on asking him what was wrong when i dont give a crap. if you're not gonna frickin tell me, then dont bring it up; i dont care.

i'm not even nice to him anymore; more like curt with my words and half the time, i give him the cold shoulder. i dont see why he still hangs out with me. but then again, today, he told me that i'm his best friend cuz i'm the only one who cares about him; something that no one has ever done before. now that i think about it, what about his girlfriend for 3 years? i really wish that i could think of these things when they happen, so it'd be much easier to deal with. but anyways, what the heck? when have i ever cared for him?

i think that our friendship is really twisted. like how it is in some books. and i'm the bad guy. you know those relationships where the boyfriend or girlfriend cheats on their boyfriend or girlfriend or is just plain mean and abusive towards them, but in the end, the cheated/abused boyfriend/girlfriend still ends up crawling back to them. yeah, i'm the bad person and michael's the pathetic one who always keeps on coming back. but i'm not that bad, i mean, i dont make fun of him or anything, i just get annoyed with him and ignore him. but he still waits for me at the end of the day when i'm at my locker and wants me to walk with him after science's over to got to our lockers.

i wish that he'd leave me alone. i dont want to say anything like it to him cuz i dont want him to be all emo and kill himself. i dont want his death to be on my conscience or anything. i mean, i normally wouldnt want to be alone with no friends in a class, but if i was gonna be alone cuz michael finally left me alone, then i would. it's more like, because of him, i dont have any friends in there.

whatever. i dont want to deal with this right now.

so yeah, it was my birfday this week. i'm gonna have a party cuz my parents wants to show everyone where we live now. the party's tomorrow so i hafta clean my room up and make it look like i dont even live here :P but i'm gonna procrastinate like always. and i have 2 projects i need to be working on, too. and some people from ATL are gonna be spending the night, too.

*sighs* i havent had alot of sleep all this week. one day, i only slept for 2 hours. i've been dozing off in health but it doesnt help. but yeah, looks like i'm never gonna get enough sleep anytime soon.

and last night, i found this thing on my computer that can take screen shots and i showed shelle (we're not sure why she came home yesterday) it and we found this sound recorder on our laptops, too. so we tested out the recorder to see if it worked and dood! i never knew my voice sounds like that! i dont really like it. i was gonna record myself later to hear it again.

haha, today was mr. thompson's birfday (turned 29) and someone gave him a tiara in his 1st period. we convinced him to wear it but he took it off after a few seconds. it was really funny tho.

hmm... what's new about DBSK? well, jaejoong dyed his hear back to black. just saw a video of them winning ANOTHER award for mirotic, and jae looked so CUTE when he got a bouquet for winning. XD and junsu's on this tv show all by himself without the rest of the members. it's really funny cuz it keeps on getting awkward and junsu just keeps on laughing to make it go away. and i found out that micky, jaejoong, and yunho have all smoked before. i dont know if any are still smoking. i hope they all stopped. i dont want them to die earlier than possible because of smoking.

and i found these hilarious comics a while ago. :P

...i thought there was more... oh well :P they're pretty funny.

and a pic of jae looking adorably cute XD
gonna go now