The day after I finished my exit exam for grad school, meaning that I completely finished grad school now, our group of friends spent the weekend at Harrison's parents' house in Newnan, GA. It was hilarious and fun because none of us realized just how rich his parents are, so their ginormous house completely surprised us and also scared Mikey and Jerry because of how dark and scary it could be at night when hardly any lights were on, lol. Like, it took me a while to understand the layout of the house because it was so large and had many interconnecting areas. Harrison played as our tour guide, so we got to explore a lot downtown and had mini photo sessions because Carina brought her camera!
Two days after we came back from Newnan, David and I went to Jekyll Island for our three year anniversary. I wanted to go there because I saw how awesome Driftwood Beach looked, so we book a hotel that was right next to it. The hotel itself had a pretty cool setup, because it wasn't just one building like most hotels; it was a bunch of smaller buildings that only held four rooms total. We went to the beach a lot and ended up exploring St. Simon's as well after we ate at this awesome breakfast place over there, which was cool. One of my classmates recommended to eat at Driftwood Bistro, which was located at our hotel, and it was amazing. Definitely recommended, lol.
On the drive back home from Jekyll Island, we stopped by Savannah for lunch and to explore a little bit since David had never been there before. Of course we had to stop by River Street Sweets to get pralines, because they're so unhealthily good, lol. The place we got lunch at was really good, too, though; they even make their own bread for their sandwiches! I wish I could remember the name of it, lol.
The Saturday that we came back from our anniversary trip, we all went to help Mikey and his mom pack and move to their new house, which took forever since they have a lot of stuff. Basically his mom is a hoarder; it's really hard for her to throw stuff away. They had three trips with the rented U-Haul, and there was still stuff that was left at their old house. It's been three weeks since they moved to their new house, and they're probably only halfway done upacking, lol.
But that morning, David's aunt asked him a favor and he accidentally agreed to it and then told her that he would ask me for my opinion first. When he told me about it, I couldn't believe that his aunt would ask this of him. I eventually told him my answer, and he told his aunt no, and she was okay with it. However, the more I thought about it, the more upset and confused I became, so I kind of ignored it and continued to help pack and stuff until later that night when I could talk it out with Shelle and Kyle, and I got super upset to the point that I thought that breaking up would be the best option. I didn't want to make any hasty decisions, so I texted David my questions about the situation that night, but he was already asleep, so he didn't answer it until the next morning. We basically texted the whole time about the issue that day until he just stopped answering after I said something about his insecurity being a problem.
Our friends had already planned on having dinner at Harrison's apartment since Alec wanted to cook chicken adobe for us, and David didn't show up. I kind of didn't expect him to anyway, but it was good to take my mind off of our issue and just have fun with everyone else for a bit. But I eventually told them about thinking about breaking up because they were wondering where David was, so they told me the same thing that I was already thinking, which was to take some time to think things over since I'm still really emotional about it.
The next day, David asked to see me and see where we stood in our relationship, and I had to tell him the same thing: I needed more time to think because I wasn't thinking rationally. We had a long, difficult talk that day, which didn't leave me with any answers either. I then spent the week thinking about the problem and then trying not to think about the problem and then talking to Mikey and Meethu about the problem and then having a talk with David's aunt because she heard about the situation and then finally came up with an answer.
Ironically enough, when I was debating on contacting David to tell him my answer or waiting for another day or two, he texted me to see if he could see me today since he missed me. So we talked it out and decided to stay together and try to work it out together, but it wasn't easy. We couldn't go back to how it was before. I mean, I couldn't even kiss him on the mouth that day we made up. But it's gotten better lately. There's still issues, but there's always going to be issues, and I'm still trying to figure out if I'm handling it the best way possible, because I have no fucking clue what I'm doing anymore.
But yeah, that's why I haven't been posting much lately. I was too sad and unmotivated for a while there. Then I didn't want to talk about it for a while because I felt like I talked about it enough with so many people already. I don't know if I made the best decision, but we'll find out.
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